reminiscing

the torture is temporarily set aside. after 1 month of testSSS, im drained out totally. physically and metally drained. i think the more i study, the more stupid i get. but only afford to give myself a week to release and charging up. 1 more month to a bigger hurdle. i really dunno if i can manage to go thru this. and i'm kinda screwed up too.. hopeless.
eyeball popping out. strained too much. seeing double images. agrh!!!
有时真的有放弃的念头。我很累，快要崩溃了。